Ramblings of a Monday.

I am pretty sure I am the worst blogger in the entire world. The only step ahead of someone who might be worse than I am, is someone who does not have a blog. I am quite horrible at updating my blogs on a regular basis. But since I am avoiding homework at this exact moment, I thought I would share what has been going on.

There is only 39 days until I graduate. December 18 at 2 p.m. at Harvest Christian Fellowship, I will graduate with my B.A. in English...presuming I pass my classes. I would also like to point out that it took me less than 4 years to complete my degree, but by no means am I complete with school. Just the undergraduate portion of my life.

In 10 short days, I will complete the single most important paper of my life. This is my capstone portfolio. Once I complete this, my English degree requirements will be complete. This is a huge step. I have been working on this paper for over a year and it is finally coming time to submit it to a panel. This is very scary. My worse fear is the panel will say "Oh sorry, you suck. Better luck next time." Which, if this is the case, is something I will just learn to deal with.

I have been struggling with quite a few things in my life lately. I am learning a lot, some things I do not really want to know, but I suppose that is just a fact of life.

I will start a credentialing program for special education next semester and hopefully complete this withing the next year and a half. I never thought I would want to teach a special education class, but for some reason or another, this summer I was just drawn to it. Which is weird, considering nothing this summer was in relation to this sudden change of interests.

I am still longing to move overseas and cannot wait to see it that is the way things will work out.

I have decided that forgiving quickly is the only way to be happy. People are dumb and they suck at times, but there is no need for that to bog me down. No need to stress over things. As long as I am living the way intended for my life, all should be well... easier said than done.

As you can see, a lot is going on. A lot is changing. A lot is going to change. A lot has happened. I continue to move forward in hopes of reaching my goals and actually learning a few things along the way. I am trying to invest in the relationships around me that are meaningful and fruitful and letting go of those that are surfaced and shallow. I have decided to be more honest with people regardless. I realize that I may come across mean because of this, but I have also realized that being honest about everything is more important than lying to spare someone's feelings.